Loss. Loss, loss, loss. Lately, my life is a never-ending string of losses. I’ve lost my stomach. My favorite organ, one of my best friends. I treated it so well, and it tried to kill me.  But you’ve heard enough about that. Now I’ve lost my friends. My main “group”...

From Husband to Caregiver Going froms husband, employee, and new dad to caregiver in a matter of months was a difficult time in my life. My wife has commented that she really doesn’t know exactly what I went through during this time, just as I can never truly understand what she went...

My therapist smiles at me— And she says hello And she shakes my shaking hand And she opens the door to her office I take a seat under the dim lights Muted bulbs that always lull me to sleep The smells of mold and perfume Wafting through the air around me My eyes close ever so slightly As I...

I don’t mean to be so bitter. I don’t mean to be so depressing. I know I’m probably pushing people away lately. Nobody wants to listen to the rants of a whiny brat. But I have something to say right now. I’m having these haunting thoughts tonight. I can’t sleep at...

Oh my gosh, you guys, I’m such a lazy, grumpy piece of crap. I haven’t left the house in about a week. I haven’t worn anything other than pajamas since I got home from the hospital for the THIRD time! Yes, you heard me correctly, I was in the hospital again. I was having pain...

I am so, so happy to see this year end. It’s been an emotional roller coaster and a personal hell. My world almost did end in 2012! I am cured now. My stomach has been completely removed. There were thirteen malevolent spots inside of me. This experience has changed my very soul. I am no...

I’ve been having some serious, serious pain since yesterday. It goes away and comes back randomly or when I eat. While I was out to a delicious Korean dinner with my friend Jenn this afternoon, the pain got worse after I took a few bites. I decided that I had to go to the hospital. I was...

I love food. It’s the one thing, other than my cat, that makes me happy! I’m five weeks post surgery now and I’m almost eating like a normal person! Yesterday I had a whole pickle, some French fries, and part of a BLT. The day before I had two small slices of pizza! I’ve had crab...

We drove into the city during a Nor’easter.  I guess when my karma’s off, the world knows it. The roads were not plowed and I literally thought we were all going to die before I even made it to the hospital. When we finally pulled up to the apartment I was relieved, but still quietly...

I know I have a lot of explaining to do. I went and had the surgery with no blog posts to inform everyone. I’m home now, recovering. It’s hard for me to find the words to write! I have a big piece in the works. Right now, I’m just breathing. I can finally breathe.

Here’s my info video! Please watch it! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p9EZCBYCZ38&feature=youtu.be   Like the page as...

Hey all. My gastrectomy is scheduled for Monday, October 29th. I’m the first case, so I’ll probably go in for surgery at around 8:00 A.M. It will take three to four hours. Come visit! <3 Also, I’m the youngest gastrectomy patient to be operated on at Sloan-Kettering....

We are still selling bracelets for Beads for Bellies! https://www.facebook.com/BeadsForBellies Regular Bracelet – $7 Charm Bracelet – $10 2-Strand Bracelet – $15 Anklet – $10 Charm Anklet – $13 100% of our proceeds go to No Stomach For Cancer, an organization that...

Here’s an update. On Wednesday I had my first endoscopy. It wasn’t bad at all. I freaked out a little bit when they put the IV in, but I always do that (even though I should be used to it by now). Dr. Schattner was really nice and he supported my decision to have the surgery at age...

It’s hard for me to say this to everyone, but I think it’s time to tell the truth. I’ve decided to take the rest of the school year off. I need to breathe and regroup before my depression takes over completely. I thought I’d be ready to take on this semester, but I was...

Fran smiles at me and opens the door to her office. I take a seat under the dim lights that always lull me to sleep, the smells of mold and perfume wafting through the air around me. My eyes close ever so slightly as I slouch into the soft beige couch. She asks me the usual stuff: how are you...

“Unfortunately, the news wasn’t what we hoped it would be” I’m going to throw up. My guts are gurgling and bubbling and aching and I’m going to throw up. I think I’m dying. That would make dealing with the mutation a whole lot easier. My parents’ faces turn a tragic shade of red...

How am I going to react when I do get tested? Is Erin going to be as unsupportive and evil as I made her out to be? Will my father be okay? He already developed two pulmonary embolisms, what other side effects will show up? What will happen to my brother? What if I don’t have the mutation,...

My Aunt Dari loved my Uncle Tom, her dog Cosmo, her cats KC and Bella. Her only baby was a sleek black Dodge Viper. She adored corvettes, bird watching, orchids, the Mets. She was charming, funny, sarcastic, witty. I remember that the sun was shining on my last day with her. A few fragments...

I can’t sleep, not anymore. My thoughts are always racing, and the medicine doesn’t help. Even though I have my first class in a couple of hours, my mind just continues to wander, and I can’t help but think about the day of my test. The room is small and suffocating, its dingy...